Have I always been…
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Have I always been..
Searching for love?
Yes.
The kind of love that consumes you,
love so deep, you ache
A love that becomes unpenetratable
every single day
Love that drives you
that makes you hungry
Love that you’d fight
tooth and nail
to keep
and truly
conquers all..
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Have I always been…
In search of kink?
Yes.
An inherent need
that bubbled beneath the surface
until I truly found
me
A thirst for pain
to give myself
in the most delicious of ways
a desire to belong
to be a plaything
a pet
a private slut
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Have I always been…
Chasing my shadow?
Yes.
From the outside in
As a young girl,
you know,
you know who you are
unable to articulate it
thankfully finding words as you mature
I still chase her
the woman I am and want to be
I know she’s there
I’m almost there
catching my shadow
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Have I always been…
Afraid?
Yes.
Have I always been…
A loner?
Yes.
Have I always been…
Me?
No.
Have I always been…
Searching for you?
Yes.
Have I always been…
Hopeful that once I found you, you would help me blossom?
Yes.
And you..
You..
do..
~
Pea
~x~
Welcome to my Wicked Wednesday submission..
The non~compulsory prompt for this week {of which I always use} was ‘Have I always been..’
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Your beauty is so multidimensional. The beauty of your words and the beauty of yourself as a person are so wonderful. Beauty upon beauty and more to be shared I am sure.
Gosh, thankyou, so much. I hope to improve in writing & transferring me into words..
This was very moving. I am so so so happy for you, sweet Pea. <3 And I love that I can hear this in your voice!
Thankyou darling.. I am happy for me too, couldn’t say that a few months ago
x
Such a beautiful post
Thankyou, Mina.. I feel encouraged by such lovely comments..
Pea ~x~
A great poem that tells so much about you. I love it & read it a few times. You truly deserve all the Earth’s happiness. I’m so happy you did!
Thankyou, Kim.. My poetry lately is for sure more about my current feelings.. I am so glad you liked it..
Pea ~x~
I read it twice and I see so much of myself in this too. But what I see most is the love at the end. I can feel your happiness!
Rebel xox
I’m happier than I’ve ever been, Rebel.. I am so glad it transfers to my words & that you saw yourself in there, too
Pea ~x~